Okay, so it's been forever and a day since I last wrote on this blog.
Life's a funny dog. This has definitely been a year of upheaval for me. A year ago, my son was in a residential treatment facility and we were dealing with the ramifications of that. I was loving my job and busier than ever at work. My daughter was struggling in missing her brother at home. My husband was working part time while looking for a job in his field.
Now I've left the job I once loved, moved halfway across the country to live with my aging parents and help care for my father, who is pretty ill. My husband and I are both currently unemployed but both kids are doing better than ever. Weird.
Oh! And who could forget...on the fringes of my life, my love for all things Criminal Intent, and a year ago when the series was massacred with a quick, unceremonious exit for my favorite detectives. Now both have signed back on for an eight-episode final season. It's like the TV gods smiled on me.
There's a lesson in here somewhere, I just know it. I'm still figuring it out. But here are some of the things I'm learning.
1. Never underestimate your kid. Just because he struggles in one setting doesn't mean he'll struggle forever. And kids can rise to meet some amazing challenges if given the opportunity.
2. Never pass up time with your loved ones, even if it's painful. I'm well aware every time I look at my father and he's having trouble walking or remembering things or performing basic functions, that he is in the process of dying. I know it, my husband knows it, my mother knows it. I'm not sure he knows it, though. But every Tuesday he and I have a lunch date, whether he's sharp as a tack or having trouble recalling what's going on. And I know that when the time comes, I will cherish those moments with him.
3. Don't underestimate yourself. In this job market, I took a job initially that seemed safe and I had done it before. It was during the second day of training that I realized how much I had changed in ten years and how unhappy I would be trying to return to myself ten years ago. I ended up turning down the job.
4. Don't be too picky. On the other hand, I'm so incredibly ready to get back to work. I miss being useful, being involved. Finding something useful to do with my time is critical to my well-being.
5. Nobody's meant to cocoon for forever. Just as butterflies metamorphose, so do we. I spent three months holed up, depressed and trying to come to terms with the changes in my life. One day I suddenly realized I was free to do whatever I needed to do, and what I needed was to get out and breathe.
6. Family is everything. Both extended and nuclear--family means the world to me. I love my kids and my husband tremendously. As difficult as all these changes have been on all of us, I feel so blessed to have made the changes with these people. That despite the fact that I'm far from a perfect mom and wife, I have three wonderful people who love me and I adore them, more than ever.
7. Everybody needs space. I thought at first it wouldn't bother me at all to live with my parents again. I was helping, right? What I've learned is that everyone gets annoying after awhile if they're too close to you in proximity. A separate home is a top priority as soon as we can do it.
8. It is absolutely possible for hell to freeze over. After all, Goren and Eames are back on Criminal Intent. Need I say more?